I got it

The past week has been really crazy, trying to figure out a way for every strange problem that only seems to occur with me. Though I have been facing weird and really very weird issues since the past 1 year , I've realized I have so many wonderful people in my life who have helped a loooooooot when they din't have to.

Thinking about it, it just feels like magic to realize that there is always some one who would come up from nowhere to help me out ... It feels strange and simply amazing to know how each and everyone of them I have met or known fits into my life. I am so thankful to god for everything I have been blessed with, though I would still not stop complaining about the things that got messed.

Though it's been a year now since we broke up....it's funny how painstakingly long it can be for some to get over somebody, while it all takes is a few seconds for some to get over. But I guess, I am moving on too. Each time I made a sincere attempt to forget him, it felt like my mind, body and soul made every desperate attempt to prove me I can not. And now that I have given up all the attempts to hold on or let go his memories, it feels as if I am more liberated.

I am just dealing with feelings I myself can not understand and it feels absolutely strange. I mean, do not you think it's weird......to not know oneself??? But I guess that is how we are all....some make attempts to understand ourselves and some do not. And I am just confused trying to figure out who I am and what I really want to do with this life, though I believe I know the answer...I am just not sure.

Some of my friends were curious whether I wished him or not on his birthday. And of course I did ....ex or not an ex he was once someone that meant the world to me and now that i do not exist in his world does not mean I can not think of him or wish him happiness.

Neither he not Iam the same people we once were ...but people change doesn't necessarily mean you have to hate them. And I shall never hate some one who made me feel the best of myself for an year and also the worst of myself for one more year and taught me to choose what I really needed.

This was not supposed to be a random post break up post but alas I just have to speak my mind.

I have a lot of assignments to do this week and the thought of doing them, itself is putting me off from giving my best to finish them. But, I shall have to keep myself inspired and believe that I CAN DO IT, because as Bryan said 'no matter how many times someone tells you they believe in you and that you can do it, it is you who has to believe you can To be able to do it'.

May this week be a happy and productive one to everyone of us.