A boat, a hole, an ocean, a life, a society,some friends and a story

This is a true complicated story told in a simple way to protect the privacy of everyone involved. ;-)

Once upon a time and a not very long ago, there lived a 'person' in the island called 'world'. The person was happy, independent, strong who made a tiny weenie spot as a home in the world and called it 'life'.

Everything was going perfect, until the person's Neighbors known as 'society' came knocking at the door and told the person, that the person should go explore the ocean in a boat because that is what everyone normally does. The person thought, 'hey! They are right. Maybe I should go explore the ocean.'

The person went in search of a boat to buy and explore the ocean. The society for some reason started pushing the person, saying the person was being too picky and taking a long time to choose instead of choosing whatever the boat was available. The person was confused, clueless and lost. The person tried as long as possible and when could no longer fight the pressure of the society, finally gave in and chose a boat....with many holes in it. The person's 'friends' suggested 'to wait and think over again and again, if that was really the right choice because it is a big one'.The person fixed the holes, hoping it could all work out normal. The society was happy and bade goodbye to the person and the boat as they left to explore the ocean.

The person did not sail very far from the shore, when the boat started filling with water as the boat had more hidden holes. The person was shocked and asked the boat...why it did not tell about the hidden holes. The boat protested saying, 'it doesn't matter!!! We are in the ocean now. This is what the society wants. You knew about the holes too. Let's just explore the ocean, ignore the holes.' The person was shocked and started debating with self, 'it was my choice. So ...Should I stay in the boat Or quit ? Should I stay? Or quit?'.


The society said, 'you can't quit. No boat is perfect. You may not be happy with the choice but that's how its always been. You can't quit.'

The friends said, ' you tried your best to fix it and you couldn't. You can't blame yourself anymore. Do what's best for you. Either Quit the trip now and come back to the shore when you can still walk In the shallow waters or carry out the exploration with the boat already filled with water hoping it's not an issue and may be get drowned in the middle of ocean in the worst case which is most probable to happen.
Whatever the decision, we will not mock at you if you come back to the shore for failing to carry out the exploration nor laugh at you if you get drowned in the middle of the ocean but only be there to support you and see you happy, strong and independent as always.

The person still is thinking whether the society is right or are the friends right?

I know my answer....what would yours be??


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Chasing dreams

...And then the bird broke the cage with great difficulty but in the process hurt her wings.....and limped away towards freedom. 

Some said she was better off in the cage...but she knew she was one step closer to fly again in the open sky, sooner or later.

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Shall I or shall I not give up??

Sometimes I wonder if I am lying to myself or trying to be confident by telling myself that 'everything is going to be okay'. 

Every choice I had to make so far in life has never been easy. I always went against the tide and took the road less travelled. I rarely complained if ever of the consequences I had to face due to my stubborn decisions. I have always been clear of what I want and what I do not. I never minded going through any kind of hardship in pursuit of my goals. Every hardship was just a kind reminder that I am giving my best shot if anything else and a reason to put a smile on my face for not giving up. Because I believe there is some kind of achievement in not giving up. 

But few-times like now, I wonder if I was wrong. Maybe the world doesn't need people like me who are passionate or want to give their best in everything they do. Maybe it just needs ; people who are unhappy, doing things they never wanted to, living lives of someone else's dream and believing that is all to life. 

So far, I have not been disappointed in life with anything. Well, there have been a few instances in which I wish I had dealt in a more matured way but again that was my life's way of teaching me the lessons I needed. With few regrets and great difficulty I have learnt to embrace the past and present. But thinking about the future and the uncertainty it comes with, I wonder if I have to take the easy way out and stop pushing myself to the edge. 

Maybe I should quit being strong and accept that there is a threshold limit to everything and accept whatever the world offers me. Right???

Or maybe not. 

Taking the easy way out and finding excuses and blaming someone else is EASY. And nobody ever becomes a WINNER by taking the easy way out and settling for something less than what they have aimed for. 

I would rather keep this fight going to make my dreams come true rather than giving up now and never knowing if they might have all been fulfilled only if I had tried a bit harder.

P.S.  Each and everyone in a battlefield is a winner. You kill someone or get killed, you are a winner. Because it is courage to not give up and believe in ones dreams that makes one a winner. 

Maybe the light at the end of the tunnel is just a few steps away. And till then I shall use my flash light and you be sure to provide it with batteries! ;) 

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You do not know me enough!

Sru: I was (spying/)looking at your Fb updates and did not relaize you have been tweeting without my knowledge all these days.
Me: HEHEHEHE.
Sru: Sometimes, I can't belive you make up such words/phrases or just copy.
Me: (offended)^_^ I take plagiarism seriously.
Sru: (not convinced) Are they really your words?
Me: ^_^ Ofcourse not. I haven't coined a single word in the dictionary.No word belongs to me. I always copy.

And this conversation today with Sru reminds me of the one I had with Paddu a long time ago.

The day after I shared my blog link with Paddu, she told me that she never thought I could write stories and that she was impressed.

Now that's like giving a compliment and yet not making it sound like one.

The lovely people in my life are weird ... lovely just like me!

Love them a ton!

Live your life.

You either need something or you do not.

You either want something or you do not.

There is abosuletly no inbetween.

There is always a F* choice in life Do not findexcuses or beg for sympathy.

Remember you are not perfect. And that is the most important aspect that connects each one of us. Do not F* try to isloate your self. 

I pretend to repsect your beliefs sometimes, no matter how F* stupid they seem because arguing is not the easy way out to make you Shut up quicker. 

You do what they tell you or you do not. No matter what, none of them is going to appreciate you. So why not F* live by what you think is right.

You do not have to be some one like mother theresa to make this world a better place but just do not be someone like Hitler propagating your stupid beliefs. 

P.s. By F* I meant this-->click here.

Job-less

Here are some Job-less conversations ;~)

Dad: Don't be disappointed that you are not getting a positive response in your job applications.
Me: Yup. I know. I shall not feel sorry for not being able to find that one employer, lucky enough to hire me...
Dad: :-O
Me: :~D
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Sru: Shut Up. You are probably not applying properly.
Me: Yes! I am.
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Me: (With a seriously bruised ego) Here look! This is how I apply  through LinkedIn.
Sru: These sentences are too long and blah blah .....
Me: :~/ Nope they are fine. {silently making quick corrections ;)}
Sru: And why do you have a picture here?
Me: It makes it easier ...you know.... for them to hire ...knowing my skin color before hand :~D
Sru: (gives a how can she be so crazy look)  :~/
Me: Shall I upload a new picture?
Sru: something professional. :~|
Me: How about this?
Sru: No
Me: This?
Sru: No
...........and a couple of  100 of this's and No's continues........

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Sru: Have you applied to each of the State board?
Me: NO.
Sru: Why?
Me: It takes a lot of time.
Sru: SU and apply....Start with Alaska.
Me: [:~( :~) ] Okay.
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Sru: Mom! Kavya will send you something....check it.
Mom: Is it her RESUME?
Me: Is it a joke? Is that all I  have ? A resume...

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I now have a new ambition.....Which is to either get a 'we are pleased to hire you' call or a 1000 'we are sorry ...we cannot hire you' emails.......Either one of them is going to be true by the end of October :~D

Finding fun ways to go through the not so funny phase of life.

.........................................................................................................and the list goes on. :)

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The first time of everything: baking a cupcake!

Now there is one thing that is off my bucket list! :-) I baked a cupcake finally! It did not turn out too good or too bad but that is okay for first time.

may seem like everyone around you is

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STOP BULLYING

Since you would be curious to know my, 'I got bullied' story, here it goes....

A picture of cycle rickshaw. (I owe no rights on this pic.)

I was in my second grade.  Every afternoon, I would go home in a cycle rickshaw. There were a couple of other kids who would ride along with me.   Among them, there was a boy who was  quite taller than me,hefty and demon-ish, his rather lean and mean sister and I, the cute-short-silent kid ;). We were made to wait in the rickshaw which was parked just beside a very steep slope, until the rickshaw-uncle (In India, anyone the age of your dad automatically becomes your uncle) crosses the street with heavy traffic, to get back some more kids from the school. During this 15-20 minutes of wait, myself,  this boy who was studying 2 or 3 grades higher than me and his sister a year younger than him, were left all by our self. 

These 15-20 minutes were plain torture if anything else, every single day I went to school. This boy and his sister never liked me, for some reason. They found ultimate pleasure in hurting me and belittling me. Every afternoon, this boy would threaten me and scare me to death saying that he would push the rickshaw off the slope. He would even get down the rickshaw and push the cart, as his sister gave a approving laugh. Sometimes, even hurting me physically. The more I requested him to stop doing what he was, the more he did.  I never told this at home nor to the rickshaw uncle.

For some reason,  I thought nobody would help me and that sharing this story would only embarrass me and further weaken me. I kept mum and suffered alone. Being silent and pretending to ignore, were the only two options I thought I had at that time.

 I was the happiest, when my dad got transferred to a different state and myself to a different school after a year of hell. 

Since then, I kept myself safe by being at a safe distance from anything negative. As the need to be away from anything aggressive or unkind was since then not a want but a necessity. 
This whole experience taught me to chose the situations I want to be in and the people I wanted to be in my life. I just could not let anybody else hurt me like that boy & girl did.

 Later on, few more harsh lessons from life and I realized that ignoring a problem is never a solution. You just need to stand against what you think isn't right. 

Nobody told that 7 year old that 'you SHOULD ask for help when you can not handle'. But the 24 year old me knows that 'asking for help when in need and helping somebody in need, is a personal and social responsibility respectively, for any human'. 

P.S. 


Bullying is defined as unwanted, aggressive behavior among school aged children that involves a real or perceived power imbalance. The behavior is repeated, or has the potential to be repeated, over time. To get more info on bullying click on the link here---> Stop bullying

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