Compliments? ....err no thanks.

The worst thing about being complimented is that it makes me feel low.

Being aknowledged for a smile or attitude or anything is such a nice thing, right? But for me I feel so scared when someone actually says they like me for so and so reason. It's like telling me if you don't smile I do not like you....if you din't take pretty pictures you are boring ....without your sweet tone you would sound horrible and so on.

This is me thinking in a absolutely stupid way and my fears are totally wrong. But deep down I do not like the fact that strangers find it easy to be friends with me without even knowing me enough.

Anything and everything I do, is for myself and I only do it to be in a place I feel comfortable. Fortunately the place I feel comfortable to be in, is also the place you would feel the same. If I really like you........I would share the true side of my personality which is filled with more :~( 's then :~)'s and  more of my fears than more of happy stories.

If you haven't yet understood what I am trying to write here........it's called ramblings. :) I think it would be much more cooler to have a few friends who would stand by me during the ups and downs of my life....during my :~D and D~: times and who could compliment me as well as help me understand my shortcomings.