Things that really matter...

Heyllo Blog! What's up!?
Long due since we had a one on one chat and here it is.... :)

As you know, life is at that point of bitter-sweet phase, making it impossible for me to decide whether I should be happy/sad.

Talking about School,  things are going not so great. I did submit my final draft capstone project. Yup! The one I need to submit, to be done with my masters course. But :( my prof. said I would have to get some more statistical data to make it stronger as it was not.  He did suggest me some ideas on what I could do. I am working on it now adn I hope I can gather the information needed before I meet him next tuseday. With fingers crossed, all I can now hope is, it will all be done as early as possible because I so want to be done with my masters.

Talking about Career plans, there really seems nothing positive in store for me. :( Maybe, it's the ecoomy or maybe it has something to do with me being on F1 visa. Whatever it is, I feel terribly sad that the field I am so in love with does not have the same for me. Well, not that I am the best EHS professional avialable on the plant in the...but asking for an oppurtunity to give my best is not too much, right?? But, lets stay positive and hope the best,wishing for a miracle to happen in a week if not, I will be offically unemployed.

Talking about home, I am very apprehensive about dad's health check up and futher biopsy tests being done and stuff. Though, I am 200% positve that everything is going to be normal, I feel like a mini heart attack occuring in my tiny weenie heart each time I thhink about it. A day or two the results will be out and I am waiting for the moment I can say out aloud with a sigh that, 'I knew it was going to be normal.' And also seeing some one who deserves the best of the best dealing with a worst of the worst situation is not fun either. Again, lets hope for the best and believe god has GOOD and only GOOD in store for good people!

Talking about staying in Findlay, it's fun and not so fun. Feel's stange that I'm staying in findlay exactly during this time of the month and year, which marks exaclty a year since Mukesh's death and the life changing consequences I went through. Do I miss him? Yes I do.More so, especially when I realize how few are the people around me, who are passioante and devoted to their dreams & life. To know that one of those rare personalities, who I would have loved to call my best friend is'nt around, iss  :(.

As strange as it may sound, coincidently I happend to go to the Sunday service today for the first time in USA. I had been planning to go since a long time but it never materialzed until today. Whole time during the service, I was thinking about Mukesh and dare I say felt his presence sometimes.(yeah..too much of watching Long isalnd medium or may be just feeling the +ve energy sent by our loved ones from up above as I would belive). Well, whatever it was, I miss him...and feel sad that someone like him had so less time in a world which needed more people like him. Anyways, later in the evening, I realized that today marked the 1 year anniversary since Mukesh's funeral service was held.

Exaclty a year ago, I was working hard so that I could do what could be done for him to be in pecace and now I am all focused on myself and on sorting out my own problems. But I know I am not alone, dealing with any of my issues...the support and love I am getting from people(here and up above) who truly care for me ...it helps me to keep going.

I hope the next time I blog, I will have a ton of good news to share with you, dear bloggie!

Love you,
Archana