The End of the World...

...is not today.

Damn. I feel betrayed. Was hoping today would be adventurous, ‘a day in Narnia’ kind of a day. But it's just one more of those days(well nights actually), where I am destined to have fun with the tick-tuck-took sounds of me typing on the keyboard and the tick-tock sounds of the clock, as I make up the words to clear my thoughts.

 I was actually kind of depressed with all the things that weren’t happening in my life. The last week has been super depressing. I have had hit that saturation point where the conflict between the part of me wanting to give up and the other part of me with that tiny spot in the heart glowing as bright as the north star saying ‘not yet’ was intense. And as in any battle, the one with more courage won. So, not giving up on Plan A is still the priority at this point. J

I also happened to check my email today and found a response-email for a job that I had applied a couple of weeks ago. My hopes for this job were quite higggghh but it ended up being one of the many hundreds of jobs I have had applied so far, with no positive end result/feedback. I am not very upset but just a tiny weenie bit disappointed that this was the job for which my qualifications were a perfect match and yet I was rejected. 

Never mind, I will be more generous in applying for jobs from now on. 

P.S. 

When everything that is held dear is lost, there comes an end to the fear of losing and a victory for a new beginning. 

Cheers to new beginnings and Happy birthday me(considering it's just a couple of hours away in Australia)!  J

being an intl' student Vs. the road not taken

Since 10 months...

You will not find a job( in this field). You are an international student. ----->1

All you need is one job. Apply. Till you get one. You will.------->2

I have heard the first line, about a thousand or more times by now and the second line for once. And, I am sticking to the second one.........because that is what I want. I won't regret. 

Since 10 years...

You need to study Computer Science. It's easy to find a job.--->(a)

Do what you love.-->(b)

I have heard the (a) line for about a million times for now and still do. I have been telling myself the (b) line for a million+1 times and still do.... I did What I wanted. I have had no regrets. 

The majority of the people around me and the situations I had/have to face, have helped me realize, how much happy and brave I can be, in (at-least trying) pursuing my dreams. 

Thanks to all those, who think I am stupid & impractical. You only make me try harder until I succeed. And, all of those who've been supporting with +ve words, Thank you!!!

P.S. 

It is the same issues again, just the time, place and people have changed. I survived it once, I shall again.

Life is short, precious & sans-guarantee. I can not waste my time on doing things out of compromise, even for a single day.

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