I got it

The past week has been really crazy, trying to figure out a way for every strange problem that only seems to occur with me. Though I have been facing weird and really very weird issues since the past 1 year , I've realized I have so many wonderful people in my life who have helped a loooooooot when they din't have to.

Thinking about it, it just feels like magic to realize that there is always some one who would come up from nowhere to help me out ... It feels strange and simply amazing to know how each and everyone of them I have met or known fits into my life. I am so thankful to god for everything I have been blessed with, though I would still not stop complaining about the things that got messed.

Though it's been a year now since we broke up....it's funny how painstakingly long it can be for some to get over somebody, while it all takes is a few seconds for some to get over. But I guess, I am moving on too. Each time I made a sincere attempt to forget him, it felt like my mind, body and soul made every desperate attempt to prove me I can not. And now that I have given up all the attempts to hold on or let go his memories, it feels as if I am more liberated.

I am just dealing with feelings I myself can not understand and it feels absolutely strange. I mean, do not you think it's weird......to not know oneself??? But I guess that is how we are all....some make attempts to understand ourselves and some do not. And I am just confused trying to figure out who I am and what I really want to do with this life, though I believe I know the answer...I am just not sure.

Some of my friends were curious whether I wished him or not on his birthday. And of course I did ....ex or not an ex he was once someone that meant the world to me and now that i do not exist in his world does not mean I can not think of him or wish him happiness.

Neither he not Iam the same people we once were ...but people change doesn't necessarily mean you have to hate them. And I shall never hate some one who made me feel the best of myself for an year and also the worst of myself for one more year and taught me to choose what I really needed.

This was not supposed to be a random post break up post but alas I just have to speak my mind.

I have a lot of assignments to do this week and the thought of doing them, itself is putting me off from giving my best to finish them. But, I shall have to keep myself inspired and believe that I CAN DO IT, because as Bryan said 'no matter how many times someone tells you they believe in you and that you can do it, it is you who has to believe you can To be able to do it'.

May this week be a happy and productive one to everyone of us.

Motivating self

I write short messages for myself at work, when stressed out. I think I'm a bit more crazier then I think I am!!! ;)

Lessons Learnt in US of A

   

You can click on the link to watch the video I made, if you don't wanna read :)

              http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJ6mDGSWrTY&feature=g-upl

0-6 months


1.Flying to USA for the first time makes you feel incredibly happy and powerful until you are about to land in USA, where they give you a from where in you are referred to as an ALIEN.  It just doesn't seem welcoming anymore.

2. When someone smiles at you, you got to smile back. 

3. You got to learn to shut your mouth no matter how hard it is after flying for 24+ hours. No matter what you assume, you are not immune to JET LAG.

4. It is fun to sit back and watch two people have a cold war for your sake.

5. Someday soon, you will realize that the university you thought to be a home away from home is not interested in you but the fee you pay.

Neverthless, you will still be making a bonding with it & easily fall in <3 with. 

6. You wake up and go to bed every day cursing the one who told you that life in USA is easy, for the next couple of months.

7. Cooking, washing,cleaning,understanding the concept of plagiarism, missing home, making decisions.........you got to deal with everything you never imagined.

8. You need to make plans A,B,C and always be flexible and never get upset when things do not go the way you've planned.

9. After a month, fair skin doesn't amuse you anymore. Each time you look at someone with a darker shade of the skin, they make you feel at home.

10.Skype, yahoo, gmail, FB, twitter.....are a miracle.

11. Your bf/gf who supports you emotionally and morally from thousands of miles away makes you reinforce your belief that your true love is true.

6months-1year

12.The culture shock phase is long gone. 

13. You tend to be nice with anyone who looks like an asian.

14. You have a desire to get mugged too, because someone you know did.

15. You tell others in India that life in USA is easy.

16. Washing,cleaning,cooking,paraphrasing,or making life changing decisions....whatever it is..you know you can handle all alone.

17.  You realize neither you nor your friends back home have the time anymore for Skype, yahoo, gmail, FB, twitter anymore.

18. Long distance relationships isn't easy.

19. When the relationship turns out to be on and off, you end up wondering if its he/she you loved or the feeling of being in love.

20. Smiling at strangers comes spontaneously.

21. You have spent a significant number of hours of your life shopping in walmart.

1year-2year

22. Your so called true love ends.

23. Yahoo, gmail, twitter, fb, skype.....all they end up being is spam/junk mail collectors.

24.When you are dealing with a heartbreak, stop blaming yourself for every thing. It takes two to make or break a relationship, no matter what.

25. You do not have to be nice with everyone you meet.

26. It's not your job to find solutions to everybodys problems.

27. Understand, you are not a good cook and stop cooking to feed everyone who visits you.

28. Walmart shopping is fun no more. Neither malls.

29. You no longer notice the color of skin/eyes/hair and height/weight of people anymore, they just seem to be like someone you know or yourself but never a intimidating stranger.

30.  There are two types of ACCIDENTS that can happen....0ne on the roads with vehicles inolved;two to your own very soul.....both are devastating and killl a part of you and change you forever but eventually you will learn to NOT GIVE UP and pursure your goals. 

31. You start worrying about getting a good job soon. You would realize by now that USA is a home away from home, welcoming or not. 

32. No matter what your finacial poistion is or the reason for being 'SICK' is, you are given Prpoer, Timely and sufficient care.

33. The one you feared the most can end up being the one who helps you to get over your biggest fears.

34. There are very very kind people in this world who can go out of the way to help you be the one  you ought to be.

35. Supportive words from people you least expected gives you a boost to do things you thoght you could never.

36. Death of a friend can teach you the most important lesson of your life i.e. 'to live life your way.'

37. Dreams come true as long as you're determined enough to put in the required efforts. 

38. The best part of your life beging the moment you forgive yourself for the mistakes done and move on.

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Potato Curry

Hey Nicole!!! Here is your recipe!! :~D

There you go!!! A 10 step recipe to a simple Indian Curry!!!

You can try adding different amounts of chilli powder or 1or 2 jalapenos :))

Happy cooking!

'Bad Customer' Service

So, I call the cab all excited to go shopping. 
Me: Hey! I need a ride at 3.30 pm. :D (these people ♥ me, I tell myself) 
Chucks: I have to pick some one up at that time.

[And hangs up the call]...[HANGS UP ON ME :( :( :( ]

Me: .........WHAT........REALLY............. F...........Mean....Stupid....blah blah blah...
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So I call him back..
Me: How about picking me up at 4 then? :) (with that extra sweet voice)
Chucks: Yup. See you.

{This is called a BAD CUSTOMER SERVICE...I tell myself.}

After getting into the cab:

Me: I never saw you?? you drive?? (^_^)
Chuks: Ya..sometimes. I'm a backup driver...

Me: Are those real homes??
Chuks: Nope. Camping....
Me: I thought so...

Me: It's pleasant outside..
Chucks: Yes. It's going to rain, soon.
Me: Why?
Chucks: See the clouds there...
Me: Yeah. i know.

Me: What is this vehicle called?
Chucks: Vehicle??????
Me: Yes..this vehicle...van???...
chuckd: it's just a van..
Me: hmm.....no....it's different..
Chucks: oh! It is called a big van.
Me: See. I knew. It was different.

Chucks: 15 people can board this van.
Me: When?
Chucks: When they are having a group outing, you know.
Me: Like?
Chucks: Like for bachelor parties, weddings, etc..
Me thinks: (Funerals too?? ) Well, I thought so.

Me: I have a Q.
Chucks: I have an answer.
Me: Ofcourse. You should.

Me: How many mobiles do chucks have??
Chucks: One.
Me: How come different people come to pick me up..but its the same no. I call?
Chucks: We share..blah blah blah..
Me: I thought so.

Me: So will you come pick me up when I am done shopping?
Chucks: Well depends..on who ever is available.
Me: Yeah. I know.

Chucks: Bye now. :)

Me: Bye :D

{Now that's called s BAD CUSTOMER}

And I say to myself, 'TIT FOR TAT'.

#I gotta entertain my self ......in all (stupid) ways possible.
#I just Exaggerated??...well..if you know me enough..you would know.. ^_^

And she waited.............

I waited,

hoping for the bus to come on time,

A long journey it had been, few more miles to be go before being home,

I looked at the crowd around, tired and gloomy they all seemed,

maybe the comfort of home is what they dream of too, I told myself,

but standing out in  the crowd,

there was this one person I saw,

bright, vigilant, cheerful and beautiful she was,

There was a small group of people around her, 

friends/family/random strangers I guessed,

they all seemeed to be capitavted by the warm embrace her smile generoulsy seemed to give away, 

to which i wasn't immune,

There is something about her that's really queer, I told myself,

She seemed old but a young beautiful women she  was,

as age is to heart and not body,

When she spoke...she spoke with all her heart, eyes sparkling, a face glowing, a smile so attractive, 

swaying her hands and wriggling her fingers mesmerizingly,

she was just purely Enchanting if anything,

she seems like someone I know, I wondered.

In the bus,

I tired to sleep hoping to cut the long joureny home short,

and that was when I heard her speak right behind my seat sitting in the adjacent row,

An energy she seemed to give away with every word she spoke,

could be either the gleam in her eyes or the joy in her voice  or may be both,

but I just couldn't resist not looking back at her,

She is so much like some one I knew so well, I thought.  

The people around her were as happy as they could be,

laughing, talking aloud, some sang too...a happy ride it was,

it just din't seem to be a long boring bus ride anymore,

women & men, young & old, white & black & all the colors inbetween,

seemed to have made a deal to make it a journey-happy & warm,

she seemed like an angel acting  like a string tying the hearts of everyone she met,

to make the most beautiful garland of humanity so pure and true,

She is so much like some  one I knew, I felt.

when a place she said was home came,

a cheerful goodbye everyone said as she got down,

everyone in the bus sighed aloud and wished her happiness,

happiness that she seemed to carelessly give away to friends  known & unknown,

but there is somthing not right about her i thought,

because she was so much like some one I knew, so well. 

when she got down and got her stuff together,

I saw her look around with a smile that was fading,

seemed like she was in search of some one she knew would be there for her but wasn't,

she shivered in the freezing  cold trying to cover herself with a scarf that was inefficient,

everyone in the bus felt the pain of her fingers and face getting numb and cold to the harsh weather which was immune to charm of this princess of joy & warmth,

She laughed and said somthing aloud looking at he people in the bus,

what she said no one hear, but everyone waved her goodbye and smiled as long as they could see her, as the bus made the move,

She kep her face lit all this time with the smile that was not fading,

but as I looked at her eyes, i saw the sprakle lost, 

her hands seemed to suffer the pain of numbness not from the cold  weather but the coldness of someone's heart,

I saw her as long as I could as everyone in the bus got back to the joyful mood  she created,

this could have been the reason why,

no one but me saw the tears that felll down her cheeks as her smile faded again,

Oh Yeah, she is someone I know for sure I said aloud looking at the distant figure of her,

a woman I knew so well,

as she waited.

This picture belongs to the original story that inspired this kind of writing style!

P.S. 

1. Who ever she was..............I wish she found what she deserved by now and that she MOVED ON. 

2. This style of writting is inspired  by a story I ready 6-7 years ago. Grammatically wrong but expressively perfect. 

3. The fun of writing is when you consciously break all the grammatical rules. 

Quote: “. . .sometimes one feels freer speaking to a stranger than to people one knows. Why is that? 

“Probably because a stranger sees us the way we are, not as he wishes to think we are.” 

― Carlos Ruiz Zafón

No typos...err

Yay!!

So finally, I've fixed the 'cursor jumping around when I type' issues with my lenovo G460. Or I hope so :~O. 

So, I wrote myself a short message to test if the issue was fixed and I thought I do post it here and feel loved some time in the future when/if I get back  to this page.

These days, I am trying to really-really take care of my own self. 

 Hi Kavya!!

 I am writing this to tell you that, you are an awesome person. Trust yourself. There is a reason why strangers like talking to you. See God loves you and tries to tell you through them that you are awesome and you got to believe in yourself. He doesn’t let you go through something or anything so harsh without being aware that you can handle it. He loves you. Trust him. And trust yourself dear. I love you. Be the way you are. Remember the dream you had?? Did it not feel awesome?? That is how it is meant to be…today and every day. Never feel detested. Love you. Take care bye.

By the way, there have been no typos/cursor jumping around when I typed the above message....but seems like the issue isn't really fixed as :( the cursor is jumping around ..AAgaaaiinnn.. :((

Well, Anyways..:(I tried.

And will try again...as long as it gets fixed... ;)

Goodnight and have a Good week!!