This isn't right.

I have changed a lot over the past few years.

I believe I became wiser and more matured, which are all signs of growing up old and which I always wanted. So, I should be be happy about it. But the other night, I realized I am way less happier than I was a couple of years ago. Well, as we lose our innocence and face the harsh realities of the real-world, it is tough to be happy. So not a big deal, right?

But a bit of introspection and I realized, the reason I was happy a couple of years ago was 'myself' and not the world. Which means, the reason I am not happy now is because of me and not the world.

It's easy to blame the people and world around me for the situation I am in right now. But the truth is, I have the power to control and change whatever situation I am in. Giving up this power is easy and though  I do not want to accept it, I gave up this power. I am the only one to be blamed for my unhappiness.

I have let my problems take a bigger spot in my mind, instead of letting the other valuable aspects of my life.

I need to focus on doing what is more important for myself in the long run and things that really matter than make a big issue of the short term problems I am facing right now.

Telling myself, 'I am going to be OKAY', isn't helping much, so from today I am going to tell myself that ' I am OKAY', and motivate myself to do what I need to do.

PS: hmmmmmmmm